tonight's one of those sunday nights when it's after 1am, and i know that i'm going to need to take a 1/2 xanax in order to fall asleep. which means i'll be totally groggy tomorrow because i won't have had 8 hours of drugged, anxiety-free sleep...but it will help with tonight, and all those crazy thoughts shooting through my brain.
i got a message tonight that a friend of mine's parents were killed in a plane crash today, on their way back from the bahamas. they were finalizing plans for their son's wedding, that was supposed to be in 5 weeks. he's supposed to marry my best friend's sister. and i only met them once, but it's just one of those things, one of those tragedies that shakes you to your core, and makes you think about how short and delicate life is.
i was going to make this post into some introspective thoughts on my own life. but i think they deserve their own dedication. my thoughts and prayers are with their family. an unspeakable tragedy.
i'm grateful for the xanax tonight.